Holy crap, I just had a narrow escape! Have you ever had a narrow escape? Usually I don't.
I just spent three plus weeks desperately searching for a way to be passionate about a project,
and the project took me farther and farther away from here. Suddenly, on the verge of committing further, my brain shouted at me that it wants to be here, with paper and pen, and paint
- which is ironic since when I am here, my brain is usually whispering that I'm an idiot...
Well, I'm back.
Shut up brain.
Sometimes I am making breakfast, or dinner, or talking with a friend, or calling to make an appointment, or helping someone with directions, or telling a cab driver where to go, and it occurs
to me that
I am a grown up.
A functioning grown up person.
I am no longer a scared little child sitting in the backseat being driven to any number of
birthday parties that I was terrified to attend while my parents argued over my immediate fate
- blame, accusations, guilt, all swirling around the car.
And then sometimes I think...I still am.