23. What do I regard as the lowest depth of misery?

Seeing people I love suffer.


22. What is my most treasured possession?

Everything is replaceable.

I really enjoy my things. But they are only things, and are not real.


21. Where would I most like to live?

This question wants me to name a place where I would most like to live. I would most like to live in a place with truly decent, ethical people (not people who think themselves righteous); just laws; zero crime; visual stimulation; absolute respect for individuality; abundant employment for all; and while we're at it, no advertisements; no littering; clean air; no noise pollution, and I really like to have the seasons...

Those are qualities that I care about and would make any place ideal for me. Of all the places I have been to or heard of, none of them have all of these. Where I live has some.

On a practical level, the more I know and understand a place, the more I can imagine living there.


The next question is "Where would you most like to live?"
This question makes me think about France.
In the past, communication was awkward, because I don't speak French.

 I would alternate between being a very shy American,

 and a very direct American.

 To no avail.
Which made France very uncomfortable for me.

But on this trip, I understood France.

They respond to a little flirt, a little humor, a little genuine effort.
And I was understood.
And I liked France.

I will answer the question tomorrow. 

retour à la maison

It feels good to be back home.
And I will return to the questionnaire.
And I will return to France.


20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?

I've taken some time to think about this one. My answer surprises me a little. I first considered 
what I would want - to be surrounded by interesting activity, to be removed from human cruelty, 
to be a benefactor to to all living things, to quietly and most simply exist, as neither predator nor prey.

If I were to die and come back as a person or a thing, I would want to come back as a tree, 
in an area entirely and absolutely isolated from people, on land never to be targeted for destruction, 
and with no threatening insects, a perfect amount of rain to keep fires at bay and roots very healthy (no fungus or other disease).
I would watch the natural world all around me, provide shelter, shade, nourishment to the living things around me, and clean air for living things near and far. In peace.


19. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

It is important here, I think, to realize there is very little one individual can take credit for.
So my answer is limited, I think, to what I can.
Over-riding self-doubt to get anything done.


18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I suspect I am not unique in being the least qualified to identify what ought to be changed in me. 
Only other people who suffer our faults can be authorities on what needs changing. 
My impatience, my poor time management, my compulsions, my frailties, 
my mood shifts, my honesty...there is a list somewhere in someone's pocket. 
But the question is what would I change about myself. And while I am sympathetic to the many challenges that amount to knowing me, I view all my qualities and characteristics from beneath the surface, and they look and feel very different from in here. You see, I make sense to me. The thing I would change is something that doesn't feel like it belongs here. So although the alteration I would make might not benefit anyone else, I would (selfishly?) choose something that would resonate within.
I would remove every scrap of self-doubt.