20. If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be?

I've taken some time to think about this one. My answer surprises me a little. I first considered 
what I would want - to be surrounded by interesting activity, to be removed from human cruelty, 
to be a benefactor to to all living things, to quietly and most simply exist, as neither predator nor prey.

If I were to die and come back as a person or a thing, I would want to come back as a tree, 
in an area entirely and absolutely isolated from people, on land never to be targeted for destruction, 
and with no threatening insects, a perfect amount of rain to keep fires at bay and roots very healthy (no fungus or other disease).
I would watch the natural world all around me, provide shelter, shade, nourishment to the living things around me, and clean air for living things near and far. In peace.


19. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

It is important here, I think, to realize there is very little one individual can take credit for.
So my answer is limited, I think, to what I can.
Over-riding self-doubt to get anything done.


18. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

I suspect I am not unique in being the least qualified to identify what ought to be changed in me. 
Only other people who suffer our faults can be authorities on what needs changing. 
My impatience, my poor time management, my compulsions, my frailties, 
my mood shifts, my honesty...there is a list somewhere in someone's pocket. 
But the question is what would I change about myself. And while I am sympathetic to the many challenges that amount to knowing me, I view all my qualities and characteristics from beneath the surface, and they look and feel very different from in here. You see, I make sense to me. The thing I would change is something that doesn't feel like it belongs here. So although the alteration I would make might not benefit anyone else, I would (selfishly?) choose something that would resonate within.
I would remove every scrap of self-doubt.


17. Which talent would you most like to have?

This is a juicy question. I would love to be able to do many many things exceptionally well. 
The word "talent" in this question is a little misleading though. Talent only gets a person so far. 
Hard work and determination are more relevant. 
Communicating with other people is something I value greatly. 
I would most like to be a singer/songwriter. 
And as I lack any musicality whatsoever, talent would be a good place to start.


16. When and where were you the happiest?

I am happiest when I am anticipating something.
With rare exception, I am always looking forward, planning or expecting something.
So I am always happy about to be happy, on the verge of happiest.


15. What or who is the greatest love of your life?

Well, when I was a child, I loved no one or thing more than my mother. When I was 18 (still a child) I fell in love with my now-husband, nearly at first sight (he took longer to come around), and knew that I wouldn't love anyone the way I love him. After having a child, I experienced a very primal love that sort of rewired my brain. I love them all more than anyone. (When I want to have quiet space for myself, I tell all of them to leave me alone.)

I was thinking about this question for a while, and what I concluded was that all of my relationships (with people, with things, with activities) are aspects of my relationship with myself. They define me and my life, and each is an intense relationship that brings me closer to myself.


14. Which words or phrases do you most overuse?

I                                 am                                  sorry.


13. What is the quality you most like in a woman?

A conscience.


12. What is the quality you most like in a man?

A conscience.


11. Which living person do you most despise?

Well, despise is an extremely simple way to regard someone, with no element of understanding or empathy for whatever causes his or her offensive behavior. It is funny that this question assumes that a person might despise a large quantity of people, if I am directed to choose the one I despise the very most. People are capable of doing horrible ugly things, but rarely can you simply define someone exclusively by those actions (and I dare not judge someone when those actions are all I know about them).

I am at times afraid of people, offended by them, hurt by them, shocked, and, sadly, mortified, horrified and angry at them, but I can think of only one case, one individual where I cannot find any angle from which to view them with anything less than contempt. The display of manipulative, plotting, conniving evil which I have witnessed with my own eyes, and which has harmed a number of helpless victims has left me no choice but to despise. I do, I despise someone. It is a (less-than-) average person, walking among us, but I shall not name the name, because it would mean nothing to anyone.